April 24, 2013

I've just been feeling really down lately.  There isn't really one thing in particular about it all that is upsetting me, just that its happening I guess.  I debated about telling my husband that I was feeling upset last night, cuz I didn't think it would change anything about my mood, but thought maybe it would help.  Well it didn't really, it just reminded me that there really isn't he could say or do to help with this.  We cuddled and he offered to talk about things, but I didn't even know where to start talking about stuff.  So instead of feeling any better, I just felt a little worse that he couldn't help at all.  I know hes trying, and honestly I don't know what he could have done different so its not his fault, I just want him to be magic I guess.  We never use to have this problem, and that just frustrates me more.  I think its going to be a long day.

April 23,2013

Some days I get annoyed at how much my husband pushes for me to go to certain stores that have good LGBT policies, or look in to certain camps are are inclusive.  Don't get me wrong I don't really want my money going to companies that will give it to hate groups, but I'm also getting tired of the fact that I have to research before I shop places.  I wanted to check hobby lobby for some fabric the other day, cuz after looking in all of the other fabric stores, I couldn't find what I wanted, and I got attitude from my husband.  I haven't shopped there in over 8 months, and then walking into it once, got him all angry on the matter. Now I don't put all of the blame on my husband, I understand where he is coming from, and I agree that we should always try to shop at places that don't discriminate, but stores make it so complicated.  It doesn't even end at stores, I've been looking into preschools for my oldest son, and we have to make sure they are arn't discriminating either.  Now we are starting to look at summer camp stuff, and we have to put research into them too.  Don't get me wrong I would research these things anyways, wanting to get him in a good program, but looking for what teaching method they use is a lot easier to find then their discrimination policy.

I know there are a lot more important things to concentrate on, but this one is bothering me right now.  It doesn't normally, I'm happy to shop at places that don't discriminate, but it would be so much nicer if it simply wasn't legal to, and I could shop where ever the hell I want!!